what i've learned in three months

Bud,

I just got home from visiting the beautiful place with your friends and while driving home i was thinking of all the little things that keep popping up that i either never realized or even knew before these last three months.  things that i may have never really thought of until now.  some things that i never felt i would need to learn or think of.  other things that i just didn't pay attention to:
- lilly is more like you than i may have ever realized:
  - she covers her head with the blanket when the sun comes up every morning, just like you did
  - she laughs so loud that other people laugh along with her
  - she acts like she's listening to me and then says "what did you say"
  - she becomes friends with strangers everywhere we go
  - she organizes her fast food before she will eat it
- your friends:
  - they miss you more then you might have ever thought or realized they would
  - walsh is so much like you it's kinda crazy
  - lance likes spicy food, which for some reason i never thought he would
  - ross has been trying to keep me in line, which i need
  - we have all learned together just how precious life is(no matter how cheesy that sounds)
- me:
  - how annoying it is to have to get gas in two cars
  - how nice it was to have you come out to the car every night when i got home
  - how weird it is to not buy gaterade every time i go to the grocery store
  - how much work it is to keep lilly's room looking half way organized like you did
  - how even if it didn't seem like you were always listening it was nice to be able to just tell someone about my day

the most important thing that i am learning is that life is moving on all around me, whether or not i want it to.  i don't quite know how i feel about that yet but at least i can admit that i recognize it.  the next step, to deal with it.

i have missed you every day for the past three months more than words.

luv ya
jenn