Today I'm actually glad that you're not here. It's hard enough for me to face this and the thought of both of us having to deal makes it actually easier on me that I'm alone in this decision. Today, at 10:15am Kahana will be leaving this place.
About 2 weeks ago she was just not herself. I took her to the vet thinking that she had an Upper Respiratory Infection. It is cancer.
You know her, stubborn like her dad. She refuses any attempt (and believe me I have tried everything) at taking any pills. She has given up. She stopped eating a few days ago and has been crying since yesterday. I said my goodbye's. I told her that, although, I am NOT ready for her to go, I know that it is her time. I told her she has been the best dog ever. I told her that I know that she has missed you. And I told her that any pain she is feeling, I will fix very soon.
She is such a part of you. The dog you "always wanted". The part of our family that we drove over 17 hours to bring home. The first big decision we made as a married couple. Your friend that you took to every football Sunday, whether your friends liked it or not.
Whoever came up with that saying "You're never given more than you can handle" is full of shit. They were not a widow at 32. They don't have a 5 year old daughter without a dad. They were not betrayed by life and expected to wake up the next morning. They have NO idea!
Will I continue to "handle", yes. Am I happy about it, no. Do I feel that we've been dealt a crappy hand, absolutely.
So Kahana is leaving our family. We will make the best, as we are forced to, and continue to move forward.
I'm not sure if she will "join" you. But, she won't be in pain anymore and that's what really matters to me.
Miss ya more then words.
Jenn
Oh Jen, I'm sorry to hear about this! A dog is so much a part of our family and can be such a loss. I was pregnant with Oliver when we lost Kona at age 3 to heart failure. We still haven't been able to get another minpin...
ReplyDeleteYou have been dealt a crappy hand here on this earth in many respects. Two things I have been saying to myself a lot lately is if the Lord has brought you to it He'll bring you through it and Comparison is the theft of joy. We all have our own dramas that play out in our lives, but I have found comfort in the Lord and I hope that you will also. Know that the Texas Steele's love you and your family always are in our thoughts!