Things I'm certain of

Bud,
We went to Paul Soholt's funeral today.  There are a few things that, if I was uncertain of, I'm certain of now.
First, Paul left behind an 11 month old daughter.  I am very certain that I am thankful that Lilly was able to spend the time she did with you.  During the service his brother said, "it's our job now to make sure that she learns about her dad through us". Sure, Lilly didn't get to have you for as long as I think she should have(for at least 60+ years of her life) but she knows you.  She knows how much you loved her (a ton)and she knows that she loved you with her whole heart.  She knows your favorite color, your favorite teams, your favorite drink and so much more. She knows that you would be here with her if you had a say in it.
The other thing I am certain of is our time together.  Although 17 years seemed like only the beginning to me, it was sure fun, wasn't it!  We used to joke about how people would say "wow you've been more places than I could only hope to in my lifetime".  Although there were SO many more places to go and things to experience I'm glad we were able to experience so many places together.  I have decided, though, that there are places that we will continue to travel to in your memory.
Lastly, you have left me with some amazing friends.  Friends that miss you so much everyday.  That will be there for me and I will be there for them.  That will continue what you started with Lilly. Things that only a daddy could share.  Fishing, soccer, riding a bike and all the other great things a daddy does.  There is absolutely no replacement for you, for that I am certain, but they will do their best to show her the way.
I'm missing you a bit more today.  The time thing is not really making a difference, as people say it does.

Luv ya,
Jenn